“I never wanna leave home, everything in the back of my brain told me that I would be sick when I’m out there.” – Wavves (from the song ‘Mickey Mouse‘).


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I hate everyone and I always did.

Following on from my post the other day, I also realise how life is really just a series of checked and unchecked boxes, that is; isn’t that what most people get out of bed for in the morning – to work towards being able to check another box in life? There are several common boxes that the majority of people place a particular importance upon being able to check: getting a job (and usually one where there is a possibility to climb the ladder), working towards having as much money as possible (from the former point) getting a girlfriend/boyfriend (in the hopes of one day attaining a long term partner), getting a car, getting a mortgage, saving enough money each year so you can have a holiday, having 2.5 children etc. But where’s the art and vitality in something so rigid and methodical as ticking boxes? I don’t know. Ticking boxes might indeed be a means to end, but what if the end doesn’t have a meaning – then what’s the point in it all? Is the point simply to fill time before you die? Probably, it’s the most logical explanation.

If life is a blank canvas, i.e. there is no god/s and none of us have an individual predefined destiny or fate – then why just fill the canvas with boxes to check? Why not paint an intricate and elaborate scene or improvise and paint a messy illogical abstract painting? I think that’s what I am going to do.

So there’s today’s five minute spoonful of modern philosophy to enjoy with a hot beverage of your choice.

These past few months I’ve been growing into my adult skin and I’ve realised that mostly life usually revolves around three things:

1) Working to make money.

2) Chasing sex and orgasm (in the form of love and relationships, or simply chasing it with one night stands, brief encounters etc.)

3) Escapism: trying to escape reality usually because 1) in this list makes us feel depressed and bored; and we hate the rigidity and predictability of our lives. Escapism comes in all forms: drugs, weekend binge drinking, and also frequently through 2) in this list: chasing sex.

Life is a predictable loop. I hate life.

“I desire the things that will destroy me in the end.” – Sylvia Plath

Oh now that’s too true…

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Tragic Beauty

Actress Evelyn Mchale’s suicide, May 1st 1947. She jumped from the Empire State Building.

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“Life is beautiful. Really, it is. Full of beauty and illusions. Life is great. Without it, you’d be dead.” – Solomon (from the movie ‘Gummo’)

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It’s Been a While…

Posted: March 27, 2014 in Uncategorized
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It’s been quite a while since I posted here and so I thank my followers for staying with me. Where have I been? Busy with university mostly as well as recording and mixing my own EP. The latter should be completed very soon now and of course I will share it with you. As well as these things, I took my adventures in the drug world a little too seriously, that is; I was too passionate and enthusiastic and so soon my adventures became misadventures, and with that came some unpleasant consequences (physical problems mostly). All of this I will write about in more detail soon. Oh yeah, I also fell in love with a bohemian Pisces fellow too. Anyway, ciao for now!

Whilst I Existed

Posted: September 29, 2013 in Uncategorized
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“I felt that if I could have stayed alone forever just not doing anything, I’d have been the happiest person in the world, but whilst I had to exist, it was killing me.”

I’m a pot-smoking



a chronic masturbator

as well as

a drinker

with a

music problem.